JuNiE's SpAcE

It's like one o'clock in the morning and I'm here writing up a blog entry when what I should really be doing is CRAMMING for the exam which is in two days and which I know absolutely nothing about!!!!!!

 

I am soo bored of PPL. Julie said she'd have children with Dicey's Rule of Law theory.... I say I'd kick his ass for having come up with such a theorem in the first place.

 

I've still got Islamic law, Indigenous law and Human Rights in Vic to go. Can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Bah to stupid islamic law and worst of all - Mabo!!!!

 

Anyway I'm glad I've got that out of my system now.

 

I'm actually contemplating on cancelling this space as just noticed my last entry was like a year ago - more than a year ago more precisely!!

Plus no one uses Windows Spaces nowadays anyway. Everyone's succumbed to My Space. Lololol

 

Anyway better get back to the books (books here should be construed in a plural way incl handouts, lecture material and the likes...)

 

Courtesy of Junie June

What a meaningful 18th bday eg--failing the mme sac!!!!!!

Maths is stupid. I mean WHO CARES how many butterflies or wasps have died? WHO cares how many millions of viruses have been produced? WHO cares how many meters the water slide is above the ground? WHO cares whether the person would reach a maximum distance if jumping off in a particular pathway modeled by a certain type of equation?????? Well I DON'T!!!!!!!

 

And among the 31 days in May why did they pick TODAY in particular??????

 

 

 

 

First of all, happy easter every body!! :)

Easter egg hunt at Jackson's was fun!!!!! Apparently Jackson's dad was v good at hiding eggs in obsecure places. lol.

Was a great afternoon for a group of chocoalcoholics and movie horns lol. snuggling together with the gals in the counch under blankets, nattering whatever popping up in the head felt soooooooooo good! :D I seriously think we should this more often :)

Stole a stack of CDs off Jackson as well which made today even greater! :P

Check out photos.. XD

Luv ya heaps gals

 

 

三月，又到了北京玉兰花开的季节了。想起了以前和好友一同‘月下赏花’的经历。二中会议厅前的那两株亭亭的玉兰想必别来无恙吧。不有感慨年年月月花相似，岁岁年年人不同。从小在燕园长大的我，现在突然怀念起那在三月柳絮中‘一塔湖图’的景致。今天是三月26日，很想写一写海子，在‘北大红与黑’上恰巧看到了一篇祭奠海子的文章，权当托物言志吧。谨以此文献给海子，北大，以及我那些即将面临高考的朋友们。

海子永远都是一个孤独的灵魂，即使是生长在北大的未名湖畔。知道海子是因为他的死，而不是因为他的诗，有很多人注意到他是从他的死开始的，确切的说，应该是那种死的方式。惋惜、痛苦、悲情、不屑一问等等有很多种，我独有的一种心态是平和。我不知道为什么，没有任何的感觉。我不知道，当火车呼啸而过，躺在车道上的海子，就这样的一瞬间而过，一生那么平静的生活，而死却选择了那么巨大的声音。未名湖畔那晚有了篝火，树枝上有了字条，吉他声也悲怯了许多，这一切不知在未名湖里的海子能否感知，这一切都是因为你还拥有着一颗圣洁的心。

诗人都是孤僻的，连死都会让后人匪夷所思；诗人又是不可多得的，是他们让我们感觉到，有一种生活叫做美好。海子的诗虽然写得更多的是黄土地，但他的诗就有着那种土土的味道，他对大地的眷恋，对麦地的拥抱，一切在他的语句里都显得很扑鼻。是的，他是一个农民的儿子，是的，他出生在以大地为生的农民家庭，他无时不惦念着那片贫乏的土地，让他的诗在那么辽阔的地方任马由缰，突然间我想到了他的死，他选择在铁轨上，是为了最后一次倾听大地的声音，想躺在大地的身上，吸取大地给予他丰厚的沃土。我想到了，海子的死，肯定是一个意外，他只是想听到大地的声音，他太专注大地的气味了，于是忘记了火车的到来，他正在和大地对话，却不曾想火车的到来让他意外的和大地更接近了，原来他是大地的儿子，大地太喜欢他，而把他召唤走了。大地不忍心让他生活得那么不幸福。海子在现实的生活里找不到灵魂之知已，因为他太偏颇了，他不会骑自行车，他不看电视，甚至连收音机都没有。他不跳舞，也很少说话，他活在另一个世界里，与大地共语的世界，没有人能懂，只有他自己最清楚。他不能忍受尘世的那种日常生活，于是生活也没有给他幸福的一块

土地。他的诗是超越理想，是一个大极的世界，是一个与平凡生活不能共容的超脱。在他临死前的两个月，一首诗歌《面朝大海，春暖花开》成了北大人的共勉：

　　从明天起，做一个幸福的人

　　喂马，劈柴，周游世界

　　从明天起，关心粮食和蔬菜

　　我有一所房子，面朝大海，春暖花开

　　从明天起，和每一个亲人通信

　　告诉他们我的幸福

　　那幸福的闪电告诉我的

　　我将告诉每一个人

　　给每一条河每一座山取一个温暖的名字

　　陌生人，我也为你祝福

　　愿你有一个灿烂的前程

　　愿你有情人终成眷属

　　愿你在尘世获得幸福

　　我也愿面朝大海，春暖花开

在大学的宿舍里贴满了这首歌，在每个人的心理都有着这句话：从明天起，做一个幸福的人。这个成了北大人一段时间以来，向往明天生活的勉励语。也许人人都可以是这样，但是海子不行，因为他是大地的儿子，大地不能失去这个人世间唯一的灵魂诗人，于是在这首诗歌出来后的两个月，海子死了，大地把它又拉到了自己的怀抱。

　　是大地的选择还是海子的选择，我想这一切终归都是圆满的结局。如果他选择尘世间的幸福，那么未名湖会给他，因为他曾也是湖里的一条鱼，曾在这个有湖的学府里学习与生活，这个学府给予了他无穷的东西：学识、真理的追求、爱的真谛、兼容并包的能力、品质、独立思考等等，这一切足以可以让他和他身边的朋友能够幸福，足以使他春暖花开。如果他自己选择的大地，那他也是一种灵魂的归宿，因为他真的 

是大地的儿子，他从大地而来，他为了大地而去。

　　人们给予了他这样的分析和评价：选择尘世的幸福则可能意味着放弃伟大的诗歌理想；弃绝尘世的幸福生活则可能导致弃绝生命本身。海子最终选择了后者。

　　我们唯一的灵魂诗人已经走了，他寻找到了全新的开始。但他不知道，在他离开的那天，从明天起，我们做了一个幸福的人。

　　选择，自由的去选择，未名湖给你一切的包容，这就是北大。

（中文水平退步很多，不好意思）:p

 

 

 

It's been well acknowledged dat im a push-over.

We're studyin a book in which the main character is a boy with Asperger's syndrome/autism. And I think Im kind of inclined to getting dat mental disorder thingy as well.

Here are some of my syptoms:

hey  guys. finally got access to the internet. horray! does everybody still noe me? im june. rite. im in beijing now. better start off with outlining how the flight was--it was just literallly HORRIBLE! nearly vomitted for quite a few times and finally managed not to do so.--spiritual emphapy. rite. the trip to hongkong was generally good except for the accomodation. guys u just cant imagine how small and squashy the apartment was! it was JUST enough for 3 ppl. u could see the opposite apartment from ur window. Jesus Christ! hong kong was really er noisy? 'its getting hectic everywhere dat u go'. lol soooooooooo many skyscrapers crammed into the little area. was a shame dat i still haven't reached the legal clubbing age otherwise i could have had great fun! did a bit of shopping. visited disneyland. was quite boring to tell the truth. if u've been to movie world in queensland u definitely wouldnt wanna go there! xmas was at the corner in hongkong. almost all shopping centres were decorated with fake snow and santas and candles and of course xmas trees! there was a place called xmas boulevard at Central hongkong. was utterly amazing! u could ask for free xmas wishing cards and jot down some of ur wishes and hang them on to some of the 'dwarf' xmas trees. therically u could just get one but ppl kept offering me cards. maybe i was being really lovable? haha anyway i wrote 'this is the most ultrafantastic xmas i've ever had in my entire 17 yrs of life!' in one of the cards. jackson would have been thrilled if she'd been there given dat she's quite obsessed with xmas. o and agnes, there was a shop called Agnes Tam in Pacific Place (o was it called Pacific Centre? they both existed and they were shopping centres)! can u believe it? i bursted into dat shop and goes i've got a friend called agnes tam! the staff just gave me a weird look and didn't say anything! o well boring! haha have been quite busy meeting with family members since i arrived in beijing. rite better shut up now. bye guys.

hewwwwwwwww finally got ova all the exams. massive relief!!!!!

did pretty crap in all exams generally but don't really wanna get into dat in great detail. coz the most important thing is dat ALL the exams r out of the way now!! hurray!! i can read bridget jones as much as i like now!!! thanx jackson!! i hope jackson can be done with pride and prejudice(colin firth version) really quickly so dat i can still see it b4 i go.

now it's time to say 'goodbye'.

it was firstly the yr11 final day--yr11's officially finished and had to say bye to classrooms and teachers and umm maybe not friends. but didnt feel so sad as exams were comin. however did have a sense of urgency as in how fast time actually goes by.

then had all my exams. went to see some of the teachers to get my mark back and it wasn't until then that i actually realized dat i will probably not have them next year. got this slightly nostalgic feeling. (except for my eng teacher)

finally did it come my final chinese lesson. was pretty sad. lots of photos were taken and had a mini-party in the last 20mins or so. suddenlly realized dat i might not be able to see all the ppl in my class for a long time or even forever!

AND since i'm leaving early I won't be able to come to sku on the very last day and have to say bye to all my friends quite early!  

o nearly forgotten. last day of work!!! they were all pretty nice to me on my very last day. they gave a cake, a teddy bear with a wee bottle of perfume in its cuddle and a card! o and heaps of hugs as well. suddenly felt sad for having to leave and felt good for having worked there.

SO BASCIALLY I HAVE TO SAY BYE TO EVERYBODY HERE!!!!!

'goodbye is the saddest word ill have to say'

'goodbye is the last time ill hold u near'

'someday u'll say dat word and i will cry'

........ 

i've been a bit sentimental, haven't i? muahahahahha

 

 

I'm getting braces!

today I went to my dentist and it was the last visit to her b4 me getting the real braces. she put some pink gel-like stuff onto two dentures and stuck them into my mouth to get some 'toothprint's from me. but they didn't taste very good. and i gagged for quite a few times but managed not to vomit.:( she then asked me to rinse my mouth aft taking all the stuff off but the pink gel stuff just wouldnt come off!

 

anyway since i'm going overseas in xmas holidays and dont want the braces to ruin my lovely time, the time dat i'll actually start wearing braces won't be until late January.

 

And Happy Halloween everybody!

i've been reading others' blog entries.

 

Comparing to theirs, mine is really ummm superficial, maybe?

 

o well, blabbering````

Okay ppl I no I'm gonna whing again! so I notify first! WARNING: IF YOU ARE IN A FAR OUT MOOD AS WELL OR SICK OF PPL WHINGING AND WANNA PUNCH THEM IN THE FACE, THEN CLOSE THIS WINDOW AT ONCE!!

 

Better start off with saying dat I wanna call my English teacher a dickhead or a stupid cow, but I can't coz bud and tim told me not to do so since i'm a good girl (though i doubt about it). Woooooopzzzzz it seems dat I just did--called her a dickhead and.....

or well. she is the most unreasonable, bitchy, arrogent, racist, snobbery person I've ever seen!!! o, and she is intellectually disabled as well. Y do they let her teacher yr11 at all? FAR OUT!!!

 

I've done my Eng oral but since I didn't hand in my notes and photocopies from the sources, which she's stressed for a million times, she'll probably give me a bad mark!! FAR OUT!!!!1

 

Physics!!!!!! I don't like physics and I'm never good at it yet somehow Mr Fallon asked me to do the phy comp!! he came to me and goes 'the phy comp u applied for can be done on wed'. i was puzzled``````--did i apply for a phy comp at all? hes like ur name was pulled out of the hat. im like gr8t! so i did it, which i really shouldnt have. it was horrible!!!!!!! can i get like 10 out of 50? Im sceptical abt it!! And a super smart guy did it the comp with me and he's like 'yeah, probably lost 2 marks'!! wasnt dat just depressing? I've made up my mind not to do any comp any more unless they are compulsory aft dat horrible science comp. But I didnt stick to my vow. I broke it!!! sob`````it was called 'The Australian Phy Olympiad'. Huge irony!! do i look like an Olympiad? Can u even image me doin prac in a lab or discussin abt Einstein's energy equation, which was on the commp, with science teachers? NO! u cant! and neither can I!!!!! o well, I did it just to make fool of my self and prove to others once again dat i'm super DUMB!! It would be like: Nathan HD, Peter HD, Yee Tern HD, o, is there a chick whose name seems to be June or sth like dat who got a  certification for PARTICIPATION? FAR OUT!!!

 

Skool!!! some guys just naturally hate, or alternatively, strongly dislike me. y??????? Am I dat hateful? o, well I've still got friends. get over it juney!! but the next thing is a big issue! i've become so addicted to making stupid mistakes in tests sacs and everything!!! u would not believe the massive stupid mistakes that i made in my chem test and my phy test!!! GMD is going quite bad!!! I have to make up my mind on what subs i'm doing next yr by Monday!! arhhhh!

Music is going quite bad as well!! the ballarrat comp is coming and it's gonna take a whole day! literally! from 7.00am to 8.00pm. stressing!! and chamber night is coming on wed but I work on Wed!!! Jesus!! my eyes r pissing me off!! they've gone blind!! cant read the notes on the board properly. FAR OUT!!!!

  

there are piles and piles of books and brochures obtained from uni's open days on my desk which are to be read. FAR OUT!!!

 

gonna be a busy weekend!!! FAR OUT!!!